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Wedding coming soon to a boat near you.

welcome friends
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deleted anyone i dont know. goodbye!

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Kaylee Malca (for my dad malcolm) Nolan (not stead...cuz we'll be married soon)



She definately has my nose and Ryans eyes. theyre deep blue ( as most babies are born with) but they'll probably stay that way.

Birth Story: to come next..... baby is crying for food.

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kaylee malca nolan arrived at 10:24 on thursday sep 29 after a relatively short labor of 12 hours. i am worn out but very happy, just trying to figure the whole schedule out.
we brought her homr from the hospital yesterday and ryan and i are in the stars right now. its such an incredible feeling.
love to everyone whose sent well wishes.
pictures soon.

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nope no labor!! although i havent slept a full night in so long that im constantly delerious and having braxton hicks contractions all the time!! im still going into work but leave after half days...things are settled somewhat there so its not as stressful now. dont ever try castor oil!! its bad news! i really hope this hurricane doesnt hit too hard as my due date is tomorrow and the doc will make me come in if its onna and then i just have to sit at the hospital and wait :(

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i am due on tuesday. with all the excitement of going into labor early i reall y thought i would have had the baby by now. on sunday last week i had a really bad fever and such bad back painn, i ended up going to hospital in the middle of the night for fear that the fever would hurt my baby. it didnt i and it ended up breaking almost just as soon as we got there (the hospital is almost an hour away) but we were there and they monitored the baby's heart rate and we got home at like 5am. ryan still had to go to work and poor guy only got 2 hrs of sleep. he begged me not to go into labor before he'ed had a chance to get some rest....and of course i complied :))
so my body's been swelling and deflating like a macy's day balloon, but still no baby...just uncomfortable. started walking on the treadmill again hoping to bring on labor, and then today i have tried every home remedy known to humans to induce labor naturally....m last resort is castor oil which i just took and lets hope it works. i am ready now for this baby- well as ready as i'll ever be- and i just cant bear to go another week waiting. im having mild contractions but nothing serious- although when i went into labor the first time it asnt too painful either just really uncomfortable. i think im going to have more of a back labor a i have really bad back problems as is, and have had pinched nerves and bad back ache the whole pregnancy.

hold thumbs i go into labor tonight!

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i have cankles. i want this baby out!!

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another day another set of emotions. the mornings seem the hardest becasue i have to relive it all again. the prospect of sleep makes me nervous, because by the end of the day i start to accept the world without my dad in it, but in the morning i have to do it all over again. i dont think i will ever comprehend exactly what that means. he was so alive just a little over a week ago. i still had hope last week, this week theres

my mom had planned my baby shower for saturday last week and she still went ahead with it. i hadnt really wanted to but she sadi my dad was really excited about the baby, and he would have wanted that. it was bitter sweet. it took my mind off things for a while, but when i remembered i felt guilty for being so carefree. i did get beautiful gifts though and this baby is the little light i have to keep me going, i think for all of us....

look at this gorgeous pair of shoes i got for baby:
cute!

im on maternity leave now i guess....theres so much to plan for. also i went into labor the day my dad died, because i hadnt eaten for two days and was severely dehydrated. so im supposed to take it easy, as stress makes the contractions worsen. easier said than done.
life goes on but with an emptyness. i have never known pain like this, and coing rom sone whose been depresed most th of their life, its pretty hectic. i love him and miss him!!

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what do you wear to your dads funeral....when you're 8 months pregnant?

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